MONOMANIA.......

On what phase of  life am I ?   What I am upto ?   What has happened to miee?   What is my basic problem ?


There are lots of issues I need to work upon ?   My instincts & my will are not mine now.

Felt very bad that vW did'nt understood what I wanted her to.

Same was not expected with Sr . However Sr  least matters to me but than also I am disappointed.


I'll try to regain my composure. Also I have to curb my idee-fixee...

Friends or Foes??????

If someone had ask me  that what u feel about  your friends or who your friends are or whos the best one, I  would've answered it proudly and very confidently. But as of now and on todays date I wonder that my friends are or say who my friends were. Those who were used to be my strength yesterday, today they  are Bete-Noire  for me. Today I like being alone & lonely.
 
                       Actually the real adversity which i  m facng not only my friends it is also my own attitude,Which hampers me as the same as my friend's. My mood keeps on changing wid the time, which people finds strangs. When I really try to do something good to someone or When I have positive feeling for someone That person starts feeling their attitud and prejuidice about me.  Verticallywhite as usuall keeps me in dillema that what she wants or what her nxt step would be in the concernment of our relationship. What she did & how her behaviour changed  was really shocking. she was reacting like an egoistic and a normal friend. which i meet on regular basis.
                   I m devastated as she is looking like she never wants to talk again ever.

People are behaving very ugly and insulting .Now i m realising that nothing and no one is trustworthy. just trust yourself and do everything yourself.

           Now i m deciding some very new and drastic changes in my life which soon would visible to everyone, just wait watch whattt happens.


I m going to talk to VW once again & trying to break the ice between us,  but yes she definitely upset the apple cart when went her city...........

See whaat happenes next.....................

However, now I have a better understanding of  love, life, friends, and most importantly of the life with these.............
           But, yes still a million doller question stands straight is that are my friends really my friend or foes......
Can I  rely upon them ? Can I trust them (if yes so on what basis)?

There is only one happiness in life -- to love and to be loved.
                                                                                                      Sauravology........





  You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
                                                                                  
                                                                                                    Sauravology........

"Whoever says Friendship is easy has obviously never had a true friend!"
                                 
                                                                                                   Sauravology........

What are friends?
Friends are people that you think are your friends
But they're really your enemies, with secret indentities
and disguises, to hide they're true colors
So just when you think you're close enough to be brothers
they wanna come back and cut your throat when you ain't lookin 
                                                                                                   Sauravology.......                                                                                                

Wondering......in depress..................

I Just got a way to my  destiney.................                                                               


But as usuall  I am in dillema of                                               
                                                How,What,Should I, will I, Wont I....................                                                  
                                               

Life On Roll...........

Yaar...........                
      
                                 Kya karoo kya naaa karoon ye kaise mushkil haayee,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,





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                                                                 #*&;^!%$###*&;^^%%


       Life is just Rolling



                                       But to which side



      God only Knows..................







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            God Should help mieeeeee....................

A path yet to be Explored......

I used to have a comfort zone, which used to be the best place for me to dwell. I used to feel that this is my world and this is where I belong to & that used to be my cocoon for living. But as I tried to look beyond the well,I came to know that there are umpteen number of  bigger and stronger frogs hopping all around. Then, I realised the wisdom of intelligent dude Darwin and also realised why he had fat body and white hair.

           I decided to kick out my favourite pinkish and creamish walls of my home, and  just ventured out on the voyage of finding the real miee. And while I started exploring myself, I received too many Jerks,Jolts and umpteen reality checks of the world & its people.I reaslied how our silly mistakes can be our biggest blunders(most of the times they really are),how your hunch can be your biggest asset,how you feel dejected by the outer world if you dont have sufficient and required expertise in yourself,How freinds changes into just the need of hour from being your true confidante,and many more things which i'll be telling in the further lines...

          You start feeling your life insipid & you try to find & feel the livelyness in each & every step of your life. Staying away from your family & friends is big pain,not everybody know this that it can be the reason of your being roboust internally & it can too bring a sense of spirituality & modesty in your character. I can say this because it has happened. Being Nostalgic for you becomes a common thing.
       
          However,while I was busy adjusting my self into the new shell, I saw how world is moving too fast, which is beyond my soprano, I could not live just see how people are winning & what others are learning from their failures. I decided to adapt myself with  the moving world & not just be the one amid many but to be the Someone among many, I m still trying to curb my failures & increase my wisdom. But one thing that is not stopped yet is the failures of my life.
        verticallyWhite has been a great source of strength for miee during this face of my life, and will always be. By the virtue of  vW I kissed my comfort zone goodbye  started shaping my future.I know(&  should everybody know) that failure does'nt means that you should stop trying,but you should realise that u r 1 step closer to your sucess coz now u have removed 1 thorn from your leg.
         Now finally, i have taken a break to reassess myself  to find who i really am. Now that I have had a reality check which I wanted a very long before, I am building myself for the new manevour,which is basically goal of my life ,now  i m trying to move my 1st step  towards it,it is JOB.
         Lets see what all can I achieve from  my this move.
         Hope for the best, while I m preparing for the worst.
         Wish miee Luck......

          

As Perspicacious as Melodious Flute.............

                                                                                           vW......


VerticallyWhite is more determined on the matter of life,career and the Future,So my request to vW
is that----

Rehna Tu


Hai Jaisa TU

Thoda sa dard tu

Thoda Sukun

Rehna Tu

Hai Jaisa TU

Dheema Dheema jhonka

Ya phir junoon

Thoda sa reshma

Tu humdam

Thoda sa khurdura

Kabhi daud jaye

Ya lad jaye

Ya khushboo se bhara

Tujhe badalna na chahoon

Rati bhar bhi sanam

Bina sajawat milawat

Na jyaada na hi kaam



Tuhje chaahon jaisa hai tu

Mujhe teree barish mein beegna hai ghuljana hai

Tujhe chaahon jaisa hai tu

Mujhe tere lapat mein jalna rakh ho jana hai

Tu zakham de agar

Marham bhi aakar tu lagaaye



Zakham mein bhi mujhko pyaar aaye



Dariya o dariya

Doopne de mujhe dariya

Doopne de mujhe dariya



Rehna Tu

Hai Jaisa TU

Thoda sa dard tu

Thoda Sukun



Rehna Tu

Hai Jaisa TU

Dheema Dheema jhonka

Ya phir junoon................

Haath tham chalna hi

To dono ke daye haath sang kaise

Haath tham chalna hi

To dono ke daye haath sang kaise



Ek daaya hoga ek baaiya hoga

Tham le haath yeh thaam le

Chalna hai sang tham le

Rehna Tu

Hai Jaisa TU

Thoda sa dard tu

Thoda Sukun



Rehna Tu

Hai Jaisa TU

Dheema Dheema jhonka

Ya phir junoon...........


Thoda sa reshma

Tu humdam

Thoda sa khurdura

Kabhi daud jaye

Ya lad jaye

Ya khushboo se bhara


Tujhe badalna na chahoon

Rati bhar bhi sanam

Bina sajawat milawat

Na jyaada na hi kaam





Tuhje chaahon jaisa hai tu

Mujhe teri barish mein beegna hai ghuljana hai

Tujhe chaahon jaisa hai tu

Mujhe teri lapat mein jalna rakh ho jana hai ...............
 
 
 
 
Don't fear to tread in this dreaded path of life, Be yourself  & Be Courageous & Sanguine......
 
 
 
 
 

 
 
 
And ,She is verticallyWhite.........................
 

High On Spirit......

"A very Small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love & life."

How you feel,when you come to know that the person about whom you were thinking that he/she has left you has gone actually nowhere but he/she had some issues to be handeled which were not to be told to you.I felt very felicitated after being received this assurance that nothing was wrong.May be it is too early to describe this whole instance after just a short discussion that also whole-heartdly with such passion that everything was just an illusion of my mind,but yet i m happy on prima faciee. I m a kind of person who finds pleasure in the slightest opportunities of happiness,which results in my alacrityness. I've suggested verticallyWhite to be spiritual,so as to tranqualize yourself,which will help to overcome your despondency. I treat verticallyWhite as me.

         " Love is a irresistable desire of  being irresistably desired."

         Now coming to the present situation, on the prima faciee things have been brought under control,by the various other factors,as much I know. On the eve of V'day I remembered many quotes but my heart didnt allowd me to express it coz of  vW.  Now that I m full of cheerfullness which vW has brought to miee, I m manifesting my mood in the form of my eternal likeness over vW through these lines------
        
          "A loving heart is the beginning of all knowlledge ."

        "Being deeply  loved by someone,a matter of destiny,gives you strength ; loving someone deeply,a matter of chance,gives you courage".

  I realized that adversity can both harm you and hlep you as well. I m never harmed by adversities coz my friends took it away from miee.but I was more puzzled that vW was more determined & willfully roboust by the troubles & adeversities,verticallyWhite taught me a lesson of courage & sanguineness,hatsoff to vW.
May vW reach to its goal. I've always been praying for vW about vW's goodness & wellbeing.
verticallyWhite has always been my source of strength.
        Now i hope that vW can be the type of person I thought to be & moreover will become what i always used to teach vW to be like.

         "As soon go kindle fire with snow, as seek to quench the fire of love with words." ------
                                                                                                                                        Sauravology