A path yet to be Explored......

I used to have a comfort zone, which used to be the best place for me to dwell. I used to feel that this is my world and this is where I belong to & that used to be my cocoon for living. But as I tried to look beyond the well,I came to know that there are umpteen number of  bigger and stronger frogs hopping all around. Then, I realised the wisdom of intelligent dude Darwin and also realised why he had fat body and white hair.

           I decided to kick out my favourite pinkish and creamish walls of my home, and  just ventured out on the voyage of finding the real miee. And while I started exploring myself, I received too many Jerks,Jolts and umpteen reality checks of the world & its people.I reaslied how our silly mistakes can be our biggest blunders(most of the times they really are),how your hunch can be your biggest asset,how you feel dejected by the outer world if you dont have sufficient and required expertise in yourself,How freinds changes into just the need of hour from being your true confidante,and many more things which i'll be telling in the further lines...

          You start feeling your life insipid & you try to find & feel the livelyness in each & every step of your life. Staying away from your family & friends is big pain,not everybody know this that it can be the reason of your being roboust internally & it can too bring a sense of spirituality & modesty in your character. I can say this because it has happened. Being Nostalgic for you becomes a common thing.
       
          However,while I was busy adjusting my self into the new shell, I saw how world is moving too fast, which is beyond my soprano, I could not live just see how people are winning & what others are learning from their failures. I decided to adapt myself with  the moving world & not just be the one amid many but to be the Someone among many, I m still trying to curb my failures & increase my wisdom. But one thing that is not stopped yet is the failures of my life.
        verticallyWhite has been a great source of strength for miee during this face of my life, and will always be. By the virtue of  vW I kissed my comfort zone goodbye  started shaping my future.I know(&  should everybody know) that failure does'nt means that you should stop trying,but you should realise that u r 1 step closer to your sucess coz now u have removed 1 thorn from your leg.
         Now finally, i have taken a break to reassess myself  to find who i really am. Now that I have had a reality check which I wanted a very long before, I am building myself for the new manevour,which is basically goal of my life ,now  i m trying to move my 1st step  towards it,it is JOB.
         Lets see what all can I achieve from  my this move.
         Hope for the best, while I m preparing for the worst.
         Wish miee Luck......

          

As Perspicacious as Melodious Flute.............

                                                                                           vW......


VerticallyWhite is more determined on the matter of life,career and the Future,So my request to vW
is that----

Rehna Tu


Hai Jaisa TU

Thoda sa dard tu

Thoda Sukun

Rehna Tu

Hai Jaisa TU

Dheema Dheema jhonka

Ya phir junoon

Thoda sa reshma

Tu humdam

Thoda sa khurdura

Kabhi daud jaye

Ya lad jaye

Ya khushboo se bhara

Tujhe badalna na chahoon

Rati bhar bhi sanam

Bina sajawat milawat

Na jyaada na hi kaam



Tuhje chaahon jaisa hai tu

Mujhe teree barish mein beegna hai ghuljana hai

Tujhe chaahon jaisa hai tu

Mujhe tere lapat mein jalna rakh ho jana hai

Tu zakham de agar

Marham bhi aakar tu lagaaye



Zakham mein bhi mujhko pyaar aaye



Dariya o dariya

Doopne de mujhe dariya

Doopne de mujhe dariya



Rehna Tu

Hai Jaisa TU

Thoda sa dard tu

Thoda Sukun



Rehna Tu

Hai Jaisa TU

Dheema Dheema jhonka

Ya phir junoon................

Haath tham chalna hi

To dono ke daye haath sang kaise

Haath tham chalna hi

To dono ke daye haath sang kaise



Ek daaya hoga ek baaiya hoga

Tham le haath yeh thaam le

Chalna hai sang tham le

Rehna Tu

Hai Jaisa TU

Thoda sa dard tu

Thoda Sukun



Rehna Tu

Hai Jaisa TU

Dheema Dheema jhonka

Ya phir junoon...........


Thoda sa reshma

Tu humdam

Thoda sa khurdura

Kabhi daud jaye

Ya lad jaye

Ya khushboo se bhara


Tujhe badalna na chahoon

Rati bhar bhi sanam

Bina sajawat milawat

Na jyaada na hi kaam





Tuhje chaahon jaisa hai tu

Mujhe teri barish mein beegna hai ghuljana hai

Tujhe chaahon jaisa hai tu

Mujhe teri lapat mein jalna rakh ho jana hai ...............
 
 
 
 
Don't fear to tread in this dreaded path of life, Be yourself  & Be Courageous & Sanguine......
 
 
 
 
 

 
 
 
And ,She is verticallyWhite.........................
 

High On Spirit......

"A very Small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love & life."

How you feel,when you come to know that the person about whom you were thinking that he/she has left you has gone actually nowhere but he/she had some issues to be handeled which were not to be told to you.I felt very felicitated after being received this assurance that nothing was wrong.May be it is too early to describe this whole instance after just a short discussion that also whole-heartdly with such passion that everything was just an illusion of my mind,but yet i m happy on prima faciee. I m a kind of person who finds pleasure in the slightest opportunities of happiness,which results in my alacrityness. I've suggested verticallyWhite to be spiritual,so as to tranqualize yourself,which will help to overcome your despondency. I treat verticallyWhite as me.

         " Love is a irresistable desire of  being irresistably desired."

         Now coming to the present situation, on the prima faciee things have been brought under control,by the various other factors,as much I know. On the eve of V'day I remembered many quotes but my heart didnt allowd me to express it coz of  vW.  Now that I m full of cheerfullness which vW has brought to miee, I m manifesting my mood in the form of my eternal likeness over vW through these lines------
        
          "A loving heart is the beginning of all knowlledge ."

        "Being deeply  loved by someone,a matter of destiny,gives you strength ; loving someone deeply,a matter of chance,gives you courage".

  I realized that adversity can both harm you and hlep you as well. I m never harmed by adversities coz my friends took it away from miee.but I was more puzzled that vW was more determined & willfully roboust by the troubles & adeversities,verticallyWhite taught me a lesson of courage & sanguineness,hatsoff to vW.
May vW reach to its goal. I've always been praying for vW about vW's goodness & wellbeing.
verticallyWhite has always been my source of strength.
        Now i hope that vW can be the type of person I thought to be & moreover will become what i always used to teach vW to be like.

         "As soon go kindle fire with snow, as seek to quench the fire of love with words." ------
                                                                                                                                        Sauravology
 
                                                                                                                                         

Charges Repelling...................

Just Walking on the Lonely roads, & see where it takes me. Confused,Intrigued,Puzzled I m just treading in journey of moving to dont know where, from here,where I today stand .No Love, No Life I m quite a tensed  about myself.
                     I sometimes feel that this is the time when I have to freak out  & enjoy my life to the nost, but I feel that something is lacking in my life ,something is missing......& if this something is just one thing (one reason) that most people knowing me know, then its not like that coz what they dont know is that I treat Or say I believe that verticallyWhite for me is a religion,a faith,verticallyWhite has Larger than life meaning for me.
         I m actually not able to decide that towards which way I have to move my life,coz when I make some decesions my "theology" obstructs my way ahead, My theology has proven both beneficial & harmfull.
I m a person with great positivty, but when I really become sad my whole positivity turns  into negativity & I  find myself into a shell of darkness & sorrowness that binds my hands & eyes from doing & seeing nything of wisdom.At that time I try to regain my composure by the help of my theology ,at that moment if i sucessfully break my uncozyness then its OK,but if I fail to do such then I become a person with great negativity & with no cheerfulness in my mind. But nobody can judge my this internally altered behaviour by seeing just my face.
This is the point where even  G&S fails to understand my issues.
              To this phase of my life I term 'being lonely' with no hope from verticallyWhite.

Hope that my Philosophy & theology will help to build not break my positivity.

My Dilemma of Being Distressed and Despondent Or.......???????

 Life Sucks man.........I dont Know Y sometimes you  feel so lonely,so cheated, and moreover defeated and not from the people around you but from yoursrlf . Sometimes you just want to sit in a dark room with no one nearby and you just want to be alone to regret for what all u hav done wrong with others and more importantly with urself.
                Actually my problem is that,I make promises to my self for very silly things and somtimes for the things which really matters.I tend to feel ki I m deceveing my self, I sense a feeling of perjurity. This word may seem like a hypocritic philosohpy but if  I assess my self or if some 3rd person will analyse this thing he will find this word just an Euphimism,as I feel it.. I pretend to be happy in the front of the world but actually now-a-days i m in a quite adversity. I m not in pecuniary difficulties but i m in misfortune of my, my mental status . No body feels nor any body can feel what really the problem i m facing coz as i say i m a open book to be read and interpreted easily but now I feel ki i hav lot of things going  inside my mind and to that,i m,also, hiding a lot of things from even my best friends,and,moreover when I tell them about myself,about my problems they sometimes don't take me seriously and reason being ki  I my self have made such reflection in the front of them ki - dont ever take me seriously coz i m not serious any time.
                 My this attitude is making my personality very unclear and ambiguous to ME(not to my friends or persons who know me coz they feel ki i m what i show,but that is actually not ME.).Actually this whole situation is like (saying in my words) I am not what I am BUT I am what I am not.(Sauravology)
               From today I m making a promise to my self(see,1ce again i m making promises,which actually is the root cause of my problems) ki I will try to change my self,actually i will not just try, i will, actualy,WILL........................

Indian Hockey ::Corrruption or Neglection ??

         Recent furore over non-payment of outstanding dues of Indian Hockey Team has created a great distress over my mind that a game which should be preserved and explored to its zenith not only coz it's Our National Game but also coz it's our obligation to protect the games right and respect it possesses. It is the game which gave us Major Dhyan Chand,Roop Chand,Dhanraj Pillai type of stalwarts.It is the first sport which gave India a respect & hounour in the field of sports.This game provided us the ability to flaunt the country's innovativeness.
                    

                    Today,in cricket-o-maniac India where children are named as sachin,bhajji etc,a world where dadajii does not takes a sip of chai without asking the score,students go for "night  studies" to their freind's house to watch the India-Pakistan day night match,and very famous & our very own 'rikshawala bhaiya' has gone hi-tech and they too possess a FM or small radio to know the the latest score,and more to this cricket has made Indian on a very freindly terms as any one in metro or in mumbai local people will be seen asking "bhaiya, score kya hua , kitne wicket gaye" &; blah blah blah. Indians want to see glamour not genuinity, fantasy not reality, and globalised cricket not Hock(localit)ey.

                    
                     Indian Hockey Team ,won its first Olympic Gold medal in 1928,& from then India were unbeaten Champions till 1956,winning 6 consecutive Olympic Gold medals grabbing 8 Gold, 1 Silver & 2 bronze medals, this "was" Indian Hockey Team {early nintes to late nineties}, And on March-9 2008 India lost to Britain 2-0 in Chile,in the final quallifying round of Beijing Olympics and was thus eliminated from the tournament,first time ever since1928, this "is" Indian Hockey Team {21st generation}.

                   In April, 2008, Kandaswamy Jothikumaran,the IHF's general Secretary had to resign after being caught in Television taking bribe followed by the suspension of IHF & its Chief K.P.S. Gill(he was cheif from 14 years) by Indian Olympic Association (IOA) on April 28.

                  And now Indian Hockey Players are not being provided with their due fees which is about 4.5 laks per player, sponsors,SAHARA,say that "we have given 1.77 Crores rs. to the Indian Hockey as our fresh deal with them few months ago, but as a sponsor we are not authorised to ask that where the money has gone." And now again they have helped I.H. by giving 1 crore rs.,but this time only & strictly for players' welfare. It is clearly visible that people who should be concerned are not bothered a bit but other persons are solicitous about I.H.T.
                Actually, the problem which Indian Hockey is facing is ,not only the corruption among the stalwarts & lower officials of IHF but also the neglection by the hoi polloi. As I said earlier that we prefer glamour over genuinity,we never tend to realise that Hockey is not  just  our national game but also it manifests our national intigrity.Hockey shows the cultural diversity of  India as many players are from Tribal regions Anglo Indians,Punjab Sikhs,Small Towners etc.I am saying this coz other games show this ethinicity too but this much diversity can be seen only in  Indian Hockey Team. Moreover, a majority of players have metamophised themselves from just a family's blacksheep to the Player of National popularity sponsered from their immense talant and due to their Patriotrism,they are even ready to play without any fees,moreover in their own expenses( as they consented,recently, in the front of a press conference provided they are given with a written letter that their due fees will be paid till such date),and they don't even mind that the flight missed them on the airport on the day they were to reach the venue.
            My point is why the the committiee and we,the masses, give preference to cricket & such glamourized sports and why we neglet the Hockey. I toh some times look forwad to that days when early morning our news paper vendor will tell ki bhaiya ji India ne Australia ko 4-0 se hara diya or a huckster selling toy Hockies in country sreets or youngsters  talking  about the famous penality shoot out which gave India its World CupTrophey,Or when the golden era will come of Indian Hockey that of India winning the Gold Medals in Olympics.
           Actually for this to be done, we all have to make combine efforts to promote our National Game,by encouraging rookie players  to play more & more and by helping amateur players to play the game as a  proffession.Schools & Colleges can add the game into the pedagogy, more funding should be relased from the government's side.Freindly hockey matches can organised in PSUs in some big events like Republic or Independence day etc.Such innovative measures can promote our National Game,but the onus primarily goes to our youth. So is our Youngistaan ready for it...... ? where's the echo................

Welcome.....Speech........

I m feeling very exited that now i m also added to the world's Bloggers fraternity. Lets see what happens & what all i can write,how will i xpress my fellings,& will share too (More correctly saying.). There has always been an urge inside me to write somewhere,secretly or publicly, somthing about what little I know,Or what all i have seen till date.
I Hope that Iwill learn a lot from blogging. All the best to me,lets see what all I can do in this maneuver..